By Kendra Holliday | February 13, 2022
“Rehabilitation is care that can help you get back, keep, or improve abilities that you need for daily life. These abilities may be physical, mental, and/or cognitive (thinking and learning). You may have lost these abilities because of a disease or injury…” – MedlinePlus
I believe in being open and honest. I’m not in the business of lying to people. I’ve been telling everyone that I’ve been dealing with a family emergency, which is true – but this time, that family member is mostly ME.
I am not well. I am not fit for public consumption.
I can’t afford to check myself into a health spa in a beautiful location, but I can create my own care plan and rehabilitate at my beautiful little fairy cottage.
I wish I had the foresight to plan ahead and take the entire month of March or April off, but instead, I had an emergency happen, and now I have to be reactive, instead of proactive.
To my great dismay, I’ve found that my burnout and breakdowns have been happening more frequently, and more intensely. I’ve learned that I try to patch myself back together and get back on the horse again too soon, and this pattern is not sustainable. If I keep doing what I’ve been doing, I will end up permanently disabled – or dead.
So, I need more time.
I need more time to heal, sort things out, and figure out next steps.
I’m not ashamed of being extra-sensitive and caring – that’s why I love what I do so much, and why I’m so good at it. I feel other’s suffering deeply. I take it to heart. I strive to be fully present when I am sharing intimacy with others. I take my Trauma Stewardship seriously.
I have Compassion Fatigue.
I truly apologize to those who are inconvenienced by my convalescence. I’m in various stages of working with many people, and I hate to interrupt the process. However, taking time to restructure my personal, professional, and philanthropic endeavors is a necessity.
Thank you for allowing me the space and time to heal.
I’ve tried and tried to get professional help over the past couple years, but the system is too overloaded, so I’m going to rely on my partner, family, and close friends.
My heart goes out to all the souls out there suffering, who are seeking help and healing. I’m proud to have helped thousands of people find health and happiness the past 15 years, and I’m sorry to anyone I’ve let down. I’ve been doing the best I can, as just one unconventional, sex-positive woman in the Midwest.
Thank you so much for your patience and understanding. You can check back here for updates, or my Twitter account.
Wishing us all love, compassion, and empathy.
We are The Beautiful Kind.