The Beautiful Kind

Eccentric YATBK: Because I’ve taken over damnit. This is a person I met on the ‘net who has a very unorthodox kink.

-Belle

Alias: Free Wheeling
Age: 38
Relationship status: Married.
Sexual orientation: I am bisexual, but I’ve never been with a woman. It took me forever to admit to myself that I *am* bi. Beyond questions of gender, I am what’s known as a “devotee”. I am extremely attracted to people with physical disabilities. I think their bodies are breathtakingly beautiful, and nothing turns me on like the sight of paralyzed legs.
Favorite physical feature on yourself: I love my eyes, and while I have a big issue with my legs, they are indeed my best bodily feature; I have elegant ankles.
Beauty tip: Take good care of your skin so that it glows, use moisturizer and sunscreen to protect your face from the ravages of time. If you don’t have what might be considered “natural beauty”, then looking “well groomed” can go a long way to improving your appearance. That said, I’m too lazy to look well groomed much the time! Who has the time??
Charity you support: I send money to Catholic Relief Services when a disaster occurs somewhere in the world. I trust this particular charity to send the money to the people who I intend for it to go to. And although there is no charity associated with Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), I regularly donate my time and talents to furthering BIID research and awareness. http://www.biid-info.org ;o)
If you could take a class for fun right now, what would you take? I would absolutely LOVE to go to rehab and learn to properly handle my wheelchair in tricky situations.
What do you want to learn/add to what you already know? I’d like to know how to cook better and how to write more interesting blog posts. I’d like to know how to write a convincing argument so as to help change the minds of people who stubbornly refuse to detach themselves from their prejudices. Then again, with most such people, no amount of skill in rhetoric could do that.
Did you have an imaginary friend growing up? No! But I had an imaginary “me”…does that count? I was always pretending or imagining that I was disabled, either in a wheelchair or blind. I still do, actually.
What is one of the bravest things you have ever done? I realized a dream out of sheer determination. It took patience, blood, sweat, and tears, and was the hardest thing that I’ve ever done in my entire life. I have BIID (see link above, or if you don’t feel like reading, this is an identity disorder somewhat similar to Gender Identity Disorder which leads someone to feel that they need to be disabled in some way), and I need to be a paraplegic. While I’ll probably never achieve that particular goal, using a wheelchair goes a long way to ease the psychological distress that having fully functional legs causes me. After years, decades of repressing and denying this need, I finally broke out a couple of years ago. I started using a wheelchair, and found immense relief from it. I have integrated it into my daily life. That whole process was terrifying, mostly because of “what will people say??” I’m still afraid, but I keep going, despite the fear, because it’s what I need, and it’s who I am.
Special skill/talent, what are you really good at? (non-sexual): I truly excel at being a jack of all trades, master of none!
Special skill/talent, what are you really good at? (sexual): I honestly have no special sexual skill, I’m very “vanilla” and have been told by a friend who’s into kink that this is because I am merely “sexually underprivileged”. Alas, that is probably true. Although it’s not a skill or talent, I’m actually proud of the fact that I find the disabled attractive, because mainstream society generally doesn’t view them in that way. I would not objectify them and make them into sexual objects; they are simply sexual beings as we all are, and deserve to be appreciated for their sexuality.
How old were you when you lost your virginity? 17
The last time you had sex, and with who: I have absolutely no idea when it last was, but it was with my husband! It’s been awhile, I’m afraid. *wince*
Tattoos/piercings: Just my ears!
What type of person are you into? I prefer people who are highly intelligent and have a wide range of interests. I am shy and feel somewhat socially inadequate, so I need people who are chatty and converse easily, but who are also good listeners. I like people who are genuinely interested in what I have to say, even if they don’t necessarily agree with it. They don’t have to have the same beliefs as I do, but they need to respect my beliefs as I will respect theirs. They also need to be open-minded and compassionate about people who are dealing with problems and issues that they may not necessarily understand — my BIID, for example.
What do you fantasize about? What turns you on? Ever since puberty and my first sexual experience (masturbating at age 13) I have been extremely attracted to people in wheelchairs, specifically to their atrophied legs. The thought of their not being able to move their legs at all is extremely erotic. I find there to be a very exotic beauty in the disabled form.
Pubic hairstyle: Jeez, I had no idea that there was such a thing as a pubic hairstyle! I had to run in panic to a friend, and asked “What if I say that I don’t have one?” Their response was that readers would think that I was completely shaved there! I guess I would have to say that my pubic hairstyle is “au naturel” because I utterly cannot abide the thought of stubble in those tender regions.
What do your nipples look like? Large, café au lait areolas, somewhat oval in shape (they are not totally round for some reason!), with a small nipple.
What was one of the hottest moments of your life? The day I finally discovered that I could have an orgasm during intercourse if I was on top! It took me a while to figure that one out. lol
Any regrets? Ohhhh, many! I am an expert at Catholic Guilt. But one of the worst regrets is that I waited until my late 30s to stop repressing my BIID and allow myself to be who I really am.
Why do you think I chose you for YATBK? Uh, because I’m a really nice person? ;o) And I have BIID, which readers will either find to be unusual or just plain freaking wierd, and I’m a devotee of people with disabilities, which, in spite of my general vanilla-ness, is not a run-of-the-mill kink!